December 31, 2013

2013

On this very last night of 2013, I am here blogging and recalling how far I've become throughout the journey of self-rediscovery and life has gotten me such much excitements this year. I'm falling in love, again. Just that this time, I fell so in love with MYSELF.

All these while, I never like giving suggestions or bring out my ideas of doing things. Simply because I don't like to kill my brain cells to think too much and I am afraid of rejections. I always classified myself as a follower and I finally decided that I am done being just a follower. 

I always wanted to do something different than the usual with my family and I did it. I managed to brought them to the places they never been.Being as a Malaysian for so long, I only had my first visit to the Gua Tempurung earlier this year with my family.




I am glad that I had cure my acne skin although having no monetary return on this investments but it's all really worth my every penny.

All the while, I was never in the limelight whenever I went to the company events. Earlier this year, I was being nominated best dress for Retro theme in my company's Dinner & Dance and close to winning the best dress. I didn't won it.



I've been saying yes to most invitations and I am more open up to what life has offered me whether it's good or bad. I'm beginning to love the trills in life that gave me adrenaline rush most of the time. 

I took the roller coasters with my eyes wide open for the first time. I had it my little sister at the Universal Studios of Singapore. We had so much fun together. 




I actually joined the Hello Kitties craze at the McDonalds. This was never me before.




I had my vacation to Taiwan with a group of girlfriends. It feel so good to be able to travel again after my previous vacation to Hong Kong in year 2007.



Witnessed the sunrise as early as 5 a.m. at Ching Jing mountains.



I love how Taiwan people build their houses on the mountains.



I immediately fell in love with Ching Jing the moment I arrived here. Amazed by their beautiful scenery with the blue blue sky.




I noticed Taiwan do have certain places that carried similarities of those in the western countries. It looks like I've been to San Francisco.




I enjoyed and appreciate every moment of bonding time with my family for I don't really get to see them everyday. I have the intention of traveling to every little part of Malaysia with them. I love traveling on road trips. We visited the Taiping Zoo.



I had my second vacation for the year to Bangkok. This time I brought my parents together. Seeing my parents in their happy moments and I am contented. 


We had our first overseas vacation together. We are planning for more next!



I won the best costumes for the first time in my company's recently Dinner & Dance for Oceanic theme. I was a jelly fish by the way.


This year was wonderful and I can't wait for what's next. Goodbye 2013.

Welcome year 2014! Happy New Year!

December 04, 2013

Let It Go

To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t about winning or losing. It’s not about pride and it’s not about how you appear, and it’s not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss and it’s not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, to overcome and move on. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving.

November 13, 2013

The Process of Infidelity

Around this time 2 years ago, I was with the man I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. I was married to this man for 3 years. I remember I was so thankful for the love that I had. I gave all my all faith to my partner and loved him with every ounce of my heart and soul. And so I thought, he was The One. 

We had our wedding reception 2 years after we were married. Just weeks before our wedding reception, my partner made a poor and destructive decisions that breaks everything we had into pieces. He cheated on me with his coworker. He lied to me on his secret meetings and blamed me for being paranoid. It was a blurry lies and followed by a painful slow discovery that the person I admired and adored, wasn't the same person that I knew. 

Of all my previous postings, I purposely didn't mention the reasons I annulled my marriage because I needed some time to heal and to process my feelings before publishing this post. Neither would I want to make this seem like I'm doing it for a revenge. It has taken me a lot of courage to share this personal experience with you because I felt shamed on what happened. 

Yes, all of us knew everyone makes mistakes. It is not the mistakes that defines a person's character but the matter of how they react to it. Somehow, I hoped he would redeem himself. That he would be accountable for his actions, work for my forgiveness and try whatever he could to make things right. I hung on to the faith that he would step up be the man that I thought he was. But, he didn't. That was the most disappointing part of all. 

I was still living with him for the next 6 months after I found out he cheated on me. My health was deteriorated and I had lost 5 kilograms in matter of weeks. I experienced my first panic attack. In that period of depression, I was in such ultimate low where I was not rational nor I could see the end of my suffering. My mind was filled with destructive thoughts. It felt as the world had collapsed.

Regardless of the support from friends and family, I still felt terribly alone. To have your heart breached and wounded feels like there is dark clouds of misery which follows everywhere you go. It's still with you no matter how hard you try to distract yourself. Even in your sleep, you cannot escape and it haunts you in the form of nightmares. You feel trapped because there is nothing you could do to make it go away. During this time, I reached out to him for help. In his own pain, he didn't know how to handle me. Instead of responding with compassion and care, he had ignored me and I felt like an inconvenient bother. I watched the man that I loved, I shared deep secrets and sacred moments with, treated me like I was nothing to him. As if one day I was the world to him and the next, I was simply irrelevant. 

Two years aftermath, I have worked very hard to pick up every little pieces of me. Turning my pain into inspiration to be stronger, smarter and wiser. I've come to an understanding that pain is only a temporary feeling. It's just like the feeling of hunger. When you feed, that feeling will be gone. There goes the same with pain. You have to allow yourself to be vulnerable and it is okay to break down and cry. You will begin to realize that moment of pain soon will be gone. 

I would still allow myself to feel whereby in the moments of sadness, confusion and anger creep upon me, I would break down in tears. These tears go way beyond the experience of betrayal and it stem down inside of me. That makes me wonder if I will ever be worthy of love from a man. 

Perhaps he wasn't capable of showing me the care I expected. Perhaps I was such an emotional wreck at that time that he felt any efforts would be futile. Perhaps he had lost all hope and cutting me off was the only solution he knew how to deal with the situation. Perhaps I lived in denials during our relationship and I lived in a fantasy I created in my own head. I don't wish to paint him as bad person. Sure he is someone who did something bad but deep down in my heart, I knew his intention was not to hurt me. What has happened came from an unhealthy choice of mine and I have to take accountability to the fact that I attracted to him to my life in the very first place. 

I have no idea how he felt, what he thought or how he handle his pain and shame. I was one of the few people he let in his life and I'm sure it wasn't easy for him either. I'm pretty sure there are some deep-rooted issues of his own which caused him to make the decision he did. Although I am the one who was betrayed, there is a different sort of pain he has to dealt with - guilt. I'm not sure which is worse but likely that both are awful to experience and I doubt he would have the courage to share his part of story.

Feeling betrayed, is a dark place that could control your thoughts and behavior. In the process of dealing with the pain, I dehumanized him. I lost compassion and I forgot that his actions came from a place of his own darkness. I dismissed that he was trying his best to cope as he knew how. All the great memories, the times we laughed, the special moments have became blur in the bitterness. And that was shame, just because the ending was bad, it doesn't dilute the incredible moments we once shared and to look back only to see the bad ending was an unfortunate and a disservice to myself. 

The ego in me feels frustrated, two years later and I still feel the remnants of that heartbreak. Sometimes it comes in wave whereby I feel like I have made no progress at all. And sometimes I look and thankful that all this happened because I've grown so much from the experience. There are ups and downs, and I am proud to say there are more ups now. And slowly that real authentic love does exist is starting to return. 

It would be a lie to say I don't miss him. I am reminded of him often, from the food I eat, the places I visit, I pictured him there. Behind the anger, the hurt, the betrayal, there is still love and care that remains. That love will eventually fade, just like memories will and one day, so will the pain. I never felt him so alive and yet so dead at the same time. As if you are mourning for the dead because he wasn't available to me since then. That is how I classified the infidelity pain would be. 

When you feel pain and suffering, it is difficult to see the light or the how the experience fits into the bigger picture of things. Hitting such a low was not an easy feat, however I feel as if it helped me mature. I am healthier both physically and spiritually than I have ever been in my life and there's a lot of positive momentum in my career and self-growth. On and off, I've given myself permission to be vulnerable and have allowed myself to process the plethora of emotions and old wounds that were triggered from the event. 

I recalled some of darkest moments after I found out he cheated on me. I felt like I was completely broken and I wanted him to fix me. Now, I realized I wasn't broken. I was just wounded. And those wound, though gentle care, eventually heal. I look back and think about that little girl, sobbing as if it was the end of world. I know now, the world was not ending, rather, it just had to hit a low in order for it get a lot better. And I did. 

These struggles which I experienced, I see it as an opportunity to heal and to grow. There is no growth without change. You've got  to let go of some old stuff. And that can be hurt. Often when I'm in the most pain, I realized it's coming from my trying to control everything or resisting the changes that come with the progress. But when you see the light, that beautiful next level and that's what you have to focus on. Surround yourself with those people who makes you laugh, who can see the essence in you and who loves you

If you are experiencing something similar, you would go far beyond this stage by allowing yourself to go through the process of infidelity. Things will get better and the feeling of suffering will eventually ease. It is important to feel the sadness. Old feelings of remorse, regret, hurt and anger often have to come in in order to be released. You will be a better person, capable of a happier life, who you are when you are no longer burdened by the buried feelings that weighed you down or the self-defeating patterns that the pain produced. 

Keep in mind that if you don't process the experience and allow the wound to truly heal, you will only endure the same suffering in some shape or form in the future. 

Endure the pain, enjoy the gain. 

November 04, 2013

Life Is Short

Life is short. You shouldn't waste it being sad. Be who you are. Be happy. Be free. Be whatever you want to be. 

October 31, 2013

Stop Comparing Where You're At

Stop comparing where you’re at with where everyone else is. It doesn’t move you farther ahead, improve your situation, or help you find peace. It just feeds your shame, fuels your feelings of inadequacy, and ultimately, it keeps you stuck. The reality is that there is no one correct path in life. Everyone has their own unique journey. A path that’s right for someone else won’t necessarily be a path that’s right for you. And that’s okay. Your journey isn’t right or wrong, or good or bad. It’s just different. Your life isn’t meant to look like anyone else’s because you aren’t like anyone else. You’re a person all your own with a unique set of goals, obstacles, dreams, and needs. So stop comparing, and start living. You may not have ended up where you intended to go. But trust, for once, that you have ended up where you needed to be. Trust that you are in the right place at the right time. Trust that your life is enough. Trust that you are enough. -Daniell Koepke

October 20, 2013

One Decade

It has been 10 years since I had started out working in Singapore. Back then in Ipoh, I worked for my dad and I had some odd part time jobs during school holiday. After graduated from secondary school, my choices are limited. I wasn't allowed to leave the town to further my studies. I'm also left with the choice of working in no other countries except Singapore. 

I remembered when I first decided went to Singapore to start on my career, it was a brave move. I have no goals in life and I do not have any future planning. I was't too sure where should I live, what job I should be looking for and I was kinda lost. 

I did some good scores in my SPM (O' Level). I refused to go the traditional way of spending 2 years in Form 6 (A' Level) and to carry on another 4 years in the local university which makes up the total of 6 years to complete a Degree. Having thought that could take me forever to obtain a degree, I've chosen the express way. I convinced my parents that I could complete much faster if I enroll into the private college. Without much thought, I hastily chosen the type of course which I'm not really keen of - Computer Studies. I couldn't care much because all I want was to complete my studies fast enough so I could start earning on my own. I've completed my Diploma in less than a year and I further myself to the Advanced. 

In just 2 1/2 years time, I'm left with only one module to complete my Advanced Diploma. I'm pretty sure that I made the right choice because I am still beyond my friends but I was wrong. I failed my final module (Java Programming). Not just once but I failed for thrice. I found myself struggling. 

At the same time, I couldn't deal with my dramatic relationship which had lead to my dramatic family issues. I had lost my focus and patience to carry on with my final module. I refused to face and overcome the mess that I've created. I am determined to leave Ipoh. I danced in joy when my best buddy Sabrina, asked me to join her trip to Singapore for job hunting. My chance is here. I wanted to leave. I dropped out of my college immediately without hesitation and left for Singapore. 

Although, I did not complete my Advanced Diploma, but I'm still awarded with a Diploma certificate. With my somewhat Diploma cert, I wasn't even too sure if I could even make use of it because I have zero intention to go into the IT industry. I've created a mindset that I could earn my first pile of gold in Singapore. I am more than ready to work my ass off. 

So I travelled to Singapore with SGD200 cash and a handheld travel bag. I put up in Sabrina's sister's place. I applied blindly for the jobs which was advertised on the papers and the web. I needed to secure a job quick enough because it's nearly impossible to survive on the cash that I have. I would take on any decent job even if it would mean being as a waitress. A week later, I found a job but it only lasted for 3 days because I don't quite like the idea of going door-to-door selling the company products. 

It took me not too long to secure another job in administrative. I moved out to share a room with my cousin sister and her boyfriend. Obviously this was ridiculously awkward. I couldn't afford renting a room on my own during that period so I have to be extra thick-skinned for that 3 months. Later on, I  moved to shared another room with some friends which became even more complicated and I got my cash stolen by my roommate. I started to live on my own thereafter.

I survived my first few months on bread loafs and canned food. I kept convincing myself that life wasn't that difficult because I didn't starved. There was a time where I attempted 4 century eggs at once because it was so dirt cheap and it cost me only a dollar plus for a meal. I suffered from food poisoning afterwards. I rejected century eggs intake forever since then. I learnt that living with parents it's the best choice because you will always be taken care of. I miss that each time when I fell sick. 

I earned less than a thousand dollar in my first job and I survived. I never like to stay constant in my job. I want to know how far I could go so I had career switch and I was given opportunity to take on something new. I'm now dealing with figures everyday. I'm still keeping up with my part time studies and in another few more years I'm sure I'll be able to provide much better for myself. I learnt that if I made more wiser choice 10 years ago, I would have ended up much higher in the corporate ladder but I never regretted the choice that I made because I realized it's never to late to make a change. 

In relationship wise, all I could say is my heart has been fooled before. I don't really care what would have been. Forgive and forget. I'm loving my single-hood and I'm having so much fun of it.

I'm living my life in moderation and keep trying to achieve my targets to realize my to-do lists. I've learnt that being rich in cash is nothing but being rich in the heart gives you everything. Life is that simple.

I now able to realize my dream to go on traveling with my friends and family. I've already been to 2 different countries in these 4 months! I hope to travel to each of the countries around the world in each year.

Ten years on, to stay or to leave Singapore? The hardest choice to make. This place leaves me with bittersweet memories. 

September 29, 2013

Can You Handle The Ugly Truth?

I really think that I should stop giving advice. It feels kinda awful when you know that you can't change certain thing. I'm glad when friends came to me and share with me with their issues. When they started to ask me what they should do, that's when I should take a step back. My advices is purely based on my own experiences and it's not proven that it will work on other people.

I often shared my life experiences with friends who practically lost their sense of direction at times. They often misunderstood that I literally tell them to do the exact as how I did in my past experiences. There comes the danger when I shared too much. I don't really care what others did because I only mind my business. What I dislike most is when I have to say, "I told you so". Immediately this four words made me feel so intelligent. If only I could foresee your future, I swear I will charge you by hour.

I'm just a normal human being. If you guys continue on asking me why is such and such is happening to you right now, I must be the God to have those answers. Most of our life experiences contributed to our maturity level and causes us to outgrown certain people. 

I do not have the answer to why certain situation happened to you. But, I do know for sure if you continue asking too much why(s), practically you are wasting your every second and minute. What's even worst? You kept rewinding the same process over and over again. How many 5 or 10 years can you still waste it away? 

If you don't really get what I've wrote above, fine. I'll be frank. I could really give you guys a very straight forward feedback if you really need my opinion so badly. I will not lie because I won't. Come to me if you don't mind getting a bitter taste of remarks from me. The best part is, the more bitter you feel of what others say about you, the more truth you will find out about yourself. Be blessed, because you know that is the ugly truth of who you really are. The truth is not always pleasant to the ears that is why they called it, "the ugly truth" isn't it?

What happens if you can't handle the ugly truth? So, you want only positive feedback which as good as lying forever to yourself and you are making others lying to you at the very same time. Denials. You are living in delusion. You can't accept negative comments. Yet you still want me to listen to your endless drama over and over again. Yes, I am willing to listen to those. But seriously, repetitively for the millionth time? Oh well, gone case. My mum taught me not to comment so much if I can't say good things to people. Period.

August 09, 2013

Universal Studios of Singapore

Few months back, I visited the Universal Studio of Singapore (USS). This place didn't turn out to be that fantastic as what I would expected but it's the place where I could scream and yell as much as I want to. USS wasn't that huge and I couldn't really found a very nice background to snap that much photos here. 




We headed directly to the Sci-Fi zone for the gigantic roller coaster ride as soon as we entered USS. I love roller coaster rides. We first rode on "Human" roller coaster which has no kick on me then followed by "Cylon" which I almost screamed my gallstone out during  the entire 90 seconds ride. I screamed until I teared. WTF. 





We attempted both roller coasters again for the second time thereafter. If you dare, please attempt the front row for both rides. 




The next thing you must ride is the Transformers. All thumbs up for this one. Super duper love it. Rode twice on this as well. Choose front row seats to enjoy the full motion trill. 



Thirdly, the Mummy's ride not too bad either. It is an indoor ride which you could see nothing but only the dark throughout the entire ride. Pretty scary but the ride is too short.



Far Far Away, there's Shrek's 3D short movie which worth spending your 15-20mins of time in there. 




Enjoy the motion seats in the cinema and watch out for the water that sprays! 







Do not waste your time for the Donkey's show unless you are coming here with your kids because this show is too kiddy for me. 




Madagascar Crate Aventure indoor river boat ride appeared to be nothing interesting here. Just a normal sight-seeing along this ride.



Seriously, this boat ride can be pretty boring.




We went to the Lost World for a river raft ride. You will be surprised towards the end of ride. You will get wet and highly possibly get soaked too but depending on the location of the seat that you choose. I was lucky enough but the lady seated opposite me was heavily soaked from head to toe. Investing in a poncho is highly recommended. 




In the inside of the Sesame Street Spaghetti Space Chase, the neon lights are very colourful and it's too dark for my camera to capture it. 






I often didn't put much expectations on the food chain in these places. Highly overpriced and non-delicious. 




Last but not least, you might wanna consider going on a weekday if you plan to visit USS which could saved you from the long queue of all the rides and probably saved you from purchasing the express expensive entrance ticket too.

Overall, I would say that my trip to the USS wasn't very satisfying because there isn't enough trill for me. Entrance fees costs SGD74. 

August 04, 2013

Suck & DIY

Read this and interpret it please. 


July 30, 2013

Holiday in July 2013

Could you tell where I've been? 


July 10, 2013

Losing Everything Can Give You Even More

I've lived,
I've loved,
I've trusted,
I've been lost,
I've been hurt, and
I've made mistakes.
But, I've learned. 

In my late 20s, I may have lost it all but I never lose my strength to stand up again. When infidelity hits me, it hit me hard. I left my ex-husband after I got "fired" by him. It was a wrong fit from the beginning but I ignored the warning signs. My pride and ego wanted me to show everyone how blissfully married I was. The day I was told that I no longer needed, my instant reaction was relief. I wasn't going have to wake up the next day to carry the duty as a wife when there isn't any presence of appreciation. 

Then, I panicked. 

How am I going to survive this? Who would find out? Was I a failure? How am I going to tell my family? How would people look at me? 

In my darkness period, I strived to focus on the light. I spent months thinking where I wanted to go and who I wanted to be. I was surprised that I really liked myself when I am on my own. 

Since then, my life has gone into a journey of self discovery. I started writing and pay more attention to myself. In turn, I get to know myself better by projecting my feelings from time to time. Writing started a chain reaction of self reflection. When you write about yourself, you tend to focus on issues you may otherwise ignore. I becoming more honest to myself and to others. 

I never really like being unhappy for too long. Nothing can stop me from being happy. Happiness is what matter most. Do what you have to do in order to feel happy.

It is okay to ask for help. 

My family has been there for me and they are the only one who accepts me wholeheartedly, at least forever. 

I have superb friends who constantly checking on me just to make sure that I am doing okay. 

There are strangers who always greet me with their smiles each morning when I walk across that road. 

Some really old friends found me and we are in close contact. 

How not to love these people?

I am, what I think I am. I dare to realize my dreams. I think positively of myself and I accomplished more than what I'd imagined that was impossible. 

June 30, 2013

Post Trauma Aftermath

For a millionth time, I'm really done asking myself, why me? Why me? This is real sickening. This question could lead to nowhere. I had been there and done that; but if you were to be given another chance to do the same thing again, would you take it? No doubts, mostly of you will. Who doesn't want a second chance? Do you know that second chance doesn't mean a happy ending. Sometimes it's just another shot to end things right. 

People start asking me, will I ever date again? I was stunt at first. Heck, this sounded more like, do you me to introduce some guys to you? Yes, it hurts still until today. It's so much of the feelings inside of me. How could I love again when I'm so afraid to fall? Sometimes you don't get closure, you just move on. 

First thing first, dating ain't my priority for now. This is the time to enjoy life to the fullest and to realize each of my dreams. I am a busy woman now and time is never enough for me. I allocated most of my time for my studies and spending leisures with my family, friends and non-stop challenge myself to find out what I'm capable of. I'm about to increase my trips of travelling and gonna leave my footprints on different places and countries. 

First half of the year had just flew by. It has been awesome. I can't wait for what lies ahead. Should there be people who tell you that you'll never pull through, you stand up and say, I can make it through the rain. 

I live life lively. 


June 28, 2013

Things I Hated Most Became Things that I Love Most

All my life, I swear that I never once like or I should say that I hated cats. Real cats, toys, figurines and enough said on anything that is associated with cats.  Cats are my enemy and so yes, I categorized the stuffs that I hated. Nevertheless, the most well-known "Hello Kitty" the cat. Looking at the sight of it, really making me sick. 






Today, I am not the Ellie Lam that you used to know. I started to look at the cats from a different angle and somehow I find myself started to love the things that I hated most. Now onwards, I collected the most recent kitties from McDonalds for SGD4.60 each with every value meal. This batch of kitties really blew my away. The colors of their suits that wrapped around the kitties flat-face head can transformed them into something that look so cute.



These are my first ever soft toys collection. Minus the Wizard and Singing Bones kitties. I didn't get to collect the whole set. The Hello Kitty craze is getting more and more absurd each week. Now that the craze has finally over today, none of you should be asking me for McDonalds again for the next few months. No, I'm not selling my collection away. Don't you dare to think about that!

June 25, 2013

Psssst!

It has been very tough for the past weeks but thank god that I'm still alive! I have been battling with my exams 2 weeks ago and now I'm blogging from Ipoh :) Life still great as it is! I wish I could just stay here like forever. I am having the time of my life here.

Met up with a few of my old friends recently and we could still talk like we used to be. It was wonderful and somehow made me realised that how time really flies and another few more months it would be my 10th years working in Singapore! Gosh...do I sound like I'm turning old now? 

Seeing my nieces in Ipoh growing so fast and yet getting so attached to me  during each time I see them, made me feel heavy-hearted to leave Ipoh tonight :( I miss them already! 

There's a lot of weird stuffs going around lately. The haze, the ice pellets rain and blah blah blah. Everybody here in Malaysia and Singapore are suffering from the wrongdoings of burning crops in Indonesia. Let's hope all these will be over soon. 

April 22, 2013

Style: Previous Vs Current

One of my girlfriend sent me this photo yesterday.

She commented that she missed my previous hairstyle of longer hair which I thought I looked pretty plain Jane with that. It's been more than a year that I had short hairstyle now. I don't denied that shorter hair does require higher maintenance than the long one.

I'm in fact pretty happy maintaining my current hairstyle for now. I'm of course do open up for other kind of hairstyles too! In the near future, hopefully I could actually changed to different hairstyles every now and then! Sticking to the same kind of style everyday can be boring.

March 25, 2013

Never Give Up

Everything is possible and could only be achieved with one word, determination. How determine are you is defined by how persistent you are in getting it there. Yes, it ain't easy and a successful person doesn't succeed in overnight. Even the most successful person had encountered numerous failures before. Yes, you tried and you failed. You start questioning yourself whether have you been putting the exact efforts in getting the exact results that you wanted? If you did, and yet you still failed, so what? TRY AGAIN. You may feel rejected over and over again in your life but don't you ever feel dejected! Keep on trying again and again until you succeed. You will succeed. It may happen sooner or later but it will definitely happen for sure.

If you never try, you will never find out how far can you go. Here, for those who still feel stuck at the moment and couldn't find their way out, I suggest you start marching forward and find the confidence in you. If he can, she can, they can , I can too!

March 10, 2013

Stop Waiting, Start Moving!

Yay! I'm one step closer in realizing one of my dreams for Year 2013! I'm about to achieve going to a place where I want to be. For a holiday! I can't believed that I actually spent years telling myself that, I want to go on traveling but never get the effort of getting it done these years. 

How did I realized my dreams?

I have goals and dreams prepared like a map but, this will not enable me to get there. I have to get going! Begin working toward my goals. I believed one small step everyday will get me farther than what I may have thought. I have to be ready for obstacles on the way and be ready to do whatever needs doing to cope with them. 

Remember, success is always dependent upon you. You have to decide to become effective after which follow through, using what is needed to get it done. Of course, you are able to sit and dream all day long lengthy, but action is needed. 

DREAMS DON'T BECOME A REALITY BY THEMSELVES!

Decide. Imagine. Most significantly, do it!

I hope that you could work on toward realizing your dreams too. 

March 04, 2013

All Good

Whatever you put up with, you end up with. It doesn't matter of what could have been now. Life gonna gets better. Everything gonna be okay. I'm gonna be better. 

Life biggest causes of unhappiness are the false beliefs you refuse to let go of. I'll never dumb myself ever again to make someone feel comfortable. Never! 

Don't try so hard, you will never be me. Good luck with finding yourself. 

March 03, 2013

Perk Up!

I like how time flies, right now. It's already March, people! I ended my February with very busy work schedule despite of shorter working days. Life shouldn't be like this. Get out of here and do something great! If you could afford, go plan a getaway every quarterly or so. I would love to and I'm so gonna work on for one pretty soon :p 

Do you feel very demotivated these days after a long break of Chinese New Year? I could have feel so too but I'm really too busy letting myself to feel that way. I don't know why. Somehow, I'm a kind of person who doesn't feel that Monday is always blue as it is. LOL. Perhaps over the weekend you are not having enough leisure or total zero leisure? 

I always treat my weekends very importantly whereby I could really be myself and do things that I really like :) I hope you could do so too and not forgetting that tomorrow is Monday! Oopps! I shouldn't have mentioned that but it doens't have that much impact on me as it does have on you. *Evil laugh*