November 29, 2012

The One That Everyone Needs

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you said and actually wanting to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.

When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealously or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.

The things that seem significant to most people such as a note, a song or a walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all.

A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but you find you're quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.

You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real that it scares you.

You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are part of your life.

Yes. I do need that someone.

November 25, 2012

My Project 1

Recently I joined a club, which is Toastmaster. When I was first being introduced of Toastmaster, I don't know what was it all about. I never heard of Toastmaster before. I thought it was a course for people to learn how to toast bread or something similar like that but it was not! So, toastmaster is a club for people like me who wants to improve on their public speaking skills and to overcome the fear of stage speech.

Last month, I attended their first meeting. I did my first project of stage speech in front of 15 strangers. All I have to do is to deliver my speech within the time count of 4-6 minutes. I can talk about anything but normally for the first time, you need talk about yourself as an introduction.

So, I did it. For the first time, I gave out my stage speech. To my surprised, I didn't expected that I was being evaluated as being the best newbie speaker afterwards! I was delighted.

I know that my current profession doesn't require such skill for me to advance. I needed it because I want to prove to myself that there are a lot of things that are certainly that I can achieve only if I am willing to do so. I may not needed the skill right now but it doesn't mean I don't get to use it in the future.

I wanted so much to do all the things which I do not dare to do previously and I'm gonna do it!


November 19, 2012

Love All Over Again

I am just a woman. I too, will break down and cry for relief at times. I am not blaming life for giving me lemons. I am just what I am. 

I just feel tired. Very tired. But I must keep on moving forward. The clock is tickling fast. 

These are just setbacks. I just need to get up and run. Life is on my own. 

What lies ahead will always be a mystery. Be daring to explore. 

I stopped asking God, why is this happening to me? Why things happen will never be certain. Take it stride and move forward. 

I regret nothing in my life even if my past was full of hurt. I still look back and smile because it made me who I am today. 

I've known defeat, known suffering, known loss, known struggle and have found my way out of the depths. I've found appreciation, sensitivity and understanding of life in me. 

Someday, I will forget the hurt, the reason I cried and who caused me pain. I realize the secret of being FREE is not revenge, but letting things unfold in their own way and own time. After all, what matters is not the first, but the last chapter of our life which shows how well we ran the race. So smile, laugh, forgive, believe and LOVE all over again. 

November 14, 2012

Am I The Best Speaker?

Just 2 hours ago, I won the title: Best Speaker by giving my first ever stage speech. Are you amazed? More will be revealed in my next post. 

November 08, 2012

Cooooough!

Cough, cough, cough! Bad, bad cough. Not seeing a doctor yet. I just wanna let it recover on its own. You might not agree on this. But wait! Did I told you that I had drug allergy?