2012

Today is the last day of Year 2012. This year, I had been to the lowest point of my life. It had polished me to become someone who I had never thought that I'll be today.

October 2011, infidelity saddened me and my marriage didn't get to survive it but, I survived. The Taiwanese drama《犀利人妻》reminisced (at least 80%) every detail of what I had gone through. I had lost six months of battle to infidelity and I'll never forget what for it had taught me. I did not let myself suffer any longer. I have chosen to give up my marriage when there is no hope left in him. This year, I have restored my status of being single again.

In the moment where I had too much to lost, I gained closer relationship with my family and friends. I thanked each of them for being very supportive throughout the most destructive period of mine when I really need them to be there. They are the best of mine and I am thankful to be surrounded by good-hearted people who are watching and guarding over me. I love all of you. 

I switched to a new job. Happy and doing very well for the time being.   

I have also completed my CAT course.

There are a lot things made more sense to me. I begin to see things from different perspective in life and simply smile through it when nothing ever goes my way. No mountain too high for me to climb. All I need is just some climbing faith. No river too wide for me to make it across. I had made it this far today. 

There's a rainbow for every teardrop. All I need is time. 

With this passing year, all these shall be past tense. All the unhappiness will be buried away.  

I welcome 2013. Happy New Year!

I've Learned...

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is to be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. 

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't give a shit about it. 

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you wanted them to be, it doesn't mean that they don't love with all they have. 

I've learned that it took years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it. 

I've learned that it's a lot easier to react rather than it is to think. 

I've learned that you control your attitude or it controls you. 

I've learned to forgive and it takes practice. 

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly but they do not know how to show it.

I've learned that I have the right to be angry but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel. 

I've learned that true friendship continue to grow even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love. 

I've learned that it isn't enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. 

I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever. 

I've learned that those who are honest with themselves, gets farther in life. 

I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains. 

I've learned that people you care most in life, taken away from you too soon. 

Worthy Of My Love

On this season's greeting, I wish that Santa could find me someone who is worthy of my love. 

I believe that you are not far from me, and understands my need. We will come together in the anticipation as the way the lover do. Sure, we will experienced the good and bad day but we will find the ability in ourselves to share and show concern. It will not be on the face value concern, it will be the concern on the commitment and respect. Respect for who we are and respect for who we will become.

Every emotion and disappointing event, we could not change that. Yet, we can still choose what we think today.  I do not wish to be alone and, I do not wish to be without love. Love fills my heart with the desire to do good. It shows me how man and woman are compatible and enjoyable. We do not need to be told the mystery of life. We are the mystery of life. Passion and confession are the only way to peace of mind. I do not find joy in listening to my thoughts all the time. I wish to share them with someone that I trust no matter what I may think.

Am I crazy to speak so freely on my conviction that love will overcome any disappointment if we embrace it? 

Those door that people close when they are sad, should not stay that way forever. I am open today and my heart sings! All I want for Christmas is YOU!