Am Detached But Still a Survivor

Moving forward of almost a year of separation with Kenny, I realized that I don't really need a marriage on two and a half year ago. Yes, things were happier back then. I'm pretty sure that I wasn't really thinking much before I said "YES" on the proposal. 

I remembered that I was even in doubt before my ROM. Thought it would be some kind of cold feet that most people would have gone through just before their wedding. The impression was wrong. I wasn't ready for it and yet I did it. How cool was that huh. 

I would say, we hasn't really been through our worse before we got into marriage. Things get a little out of control when we were husband and wife for two and a half years. We couldn't handle each other at our worse. I wouldn't say that I wasn't at wrong but he wasn't at his right too. I was being blamed and indirectly became the victim of the consequences of his wrongdoings. It's okay. Life is still okay for me as it is now. I survived. 

I'm Proud of My Heart

A friend of mine shared something wonderful to me today.

Plans for Me

I have some plans in line and hopefully that it works within the schedule that I had planned for myself. This time round, things would be very different and I'm gonna make things happened instead of waiting things to be happened. Hahahas! I feel so great now! Yippy!

I Am The Biggest Liar

Hey guys, how's everyone doing? Life has been treating me real good :)

I would like to share some news to everyone today. I've been keeping this news to myself since October 2011 and has been sharing it to out to each of my family members and friends. Year 2011 was a pretty bad year for me. That could be the reason why I had stopped blogging. My life turned it's back on me. Everything changes, too quickly.

I LIED. I lied to the whole world and I really feel very bad about it. I actually made everyone believed that I am happily married. I am not. I never was since the day I've been slapped by the truth and knowing that all these while I've been kissed with a lie.

Yes, I've been going through HELL and now, I'm back on my feet.

Sometimes, the best way to be happy is to learn to let go of things you tried hard to hold on to.

My forgiveness to him doesn't comes easy. But the peace that comes after is well worth the effort. Time does not heal wounds. Forgiving does.

Well, nothing really lasts forever. I think that's the easiest lesson we all learn in the hardest way don't we?

Not Good

Hello! It's been a while since my last post. I think I'd disappearing too long from blogging. Here a little update from me. 

These few months has been like hell for me. I was really being tied up with lots of things to be done.

My wedding dinner was held on last October. Everything went well! Thanks to my besties who has been there and gave the helping hand as much I needed. Muacksssss to my pretty babes!!

I sat for my exam in last December. Oh boy...could be I was too stressed up and I think that I didn't really gave my 100% efforts in my exam preparation :/

I just gotten my exam results lately. Guess what? I failed my exam by 2 marks! :( :( :(

Sobsssss!

Life is just like a roller coaster. It's your choice whether to enjoy the ride or to scream. 

I am not happy. Things happened and was beyond of my control. I may be silly now but at least I've tried my all rather than being regret of what I could have done.