In Memoirs

Today in 1993, feels just like yesterday since you've been gone. Year 1993 seems so far behind but I do still miss you so much especially on this day. I wish you would be here to see on how far we've become and guess what? We have an addition to our family. You'd been an uncle to our fourth niece just two months ago. I would imagine our nieces would have so much fun running in the meadow with you.

I often found myself secretly look up to you and shared my stories with you at times when I could no longer have the strength and motivation to hold on to. I'm sorry if I did made you feel bored listening to my life setbacks.

Time flashing too fast and I'm chasing time everyday. I wish I could slow down but the society doesn't permit me. I've been on the right track 'cause I know that I am no longer having the urge to look backward. I am certain of what I want and what I will be getting in life. My past does not dictate who I am today. I let it go and sail with the flow of waves. 

Everyday, I would try to laugh or smile on at least one thing that I've did. There's a saying, "Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions". Over the past decades, I finally understood on how happiness could be achieved just by the very little own choice that one could make. And of course, I choose to be happy on everyday. 

Happiness is enjoying all the small things while chasing after the big ones in which I did so. I would slow down my walking speed and observe the things around me and appreciate it beautifully with a smile.  

I learnt to put myself ahead of everyone else. I have to love myself first. Self-loving isn't a selfish thing. I am no longer the Ellie from the past. My second life starts now. Nothing is worth more than today.

2013

On this very last night of 2013, I am here blogging and recalling how far I've become throughout the journey of self-rediscovery and life has gotten me such much excitements this year. I'm falling in love, again. Just that this time, I fell so in love with MYSELF.

All these while, I never like giving suggestions or bring out my ideas of doing things. Simply because I don't like to kill my brain cells to think too much and I am afraid of rejections. I always classified myself as a follower and I finally decided that I am done being just a follower. 

I always wanted to do something different than the usual with my family and I did it. I managed to brought them to the places they never been.Being as a Malaysian for so long, I only had my first visit to the Gua Tempurung earlier this year with my family.

I am glad that I had cure my acne skin although having no monetary return on this investments but it's all really worth my every penny.

All the while, I was never in the limelight whenever I went to the company events. Earlier this year, I was being nominated best dress for Retro theme in my company's Dinner & Dance and close to winning the best dress. I didn't won it.

I've been saying yes to most invitations and I am more open up to what life has offered me whether it's good or bad. I'm beginning to love the trills in life that gave me adrenaline rush most of the time. 

I took the roller coasters with my eyes wide open for the first time. I had it my little sister at the Universal Studios of Singapore. We had so much fun together. 

I actually joined the Hello Kitties craze at the McDonalds. This was never me before.

I had my vacation to Taiwan with a group of girlfriends. It feel so good to be able to travel again after my previous vacation to Hong Kong in year 2007.

Witnessed the sunrise as early as 5 a.m. at Ching Jing mountains.

I love how Taiwan people build their houses on the mountains.

I immediately fell in love with Ching Jing the moment I arrived here. Amazed by their beautiful scenery with the blue blue sky.

I noticed Taiwan do have certain places that carried similarities of those in the western countries. It looks like I've been to San Francisco.

I enjoyed and appreciate every moment of bonding time with my family for I don't really get to see them everyday. I have the intention of traveling to every little part of Malaysia with them. I love traveling on road trips. We visited the Taiping Zoo.

I had my second vacation for the year to Bangkok. This time I brought my parents together. Seeing my parents in their happy moments and I am contented. 

We had our first overseas vacation together. We are planning for more next!

I won the best costumes for the first time in my company's recently Dinner & Dance for Oceanic theme. I was a jelly fish by the way.

This year was wonderful and I can't wait for what's next. Goodbye 2013.

Welcome year 2014! Happy New Year!